
reduction of meds
equals reduction of stability
you’re questioned whether what you’re doing
is right for you
but I know it’s important to get this poison
out of my system
to slowly cleanse myself of it
it’s been soaking my mind
tainting my equilibrium.
it can’t be healthy to be on high doses
for years and years –
when you are struggling the most,
perhaps it’s important
to have these as bandages
to cotton wool my mind
with white fluffy woollen balls
but I need the reality
of living without so much chemical restraint
I’m just taking matters into my own hands
it’s only weeks that I am not going to wait.
the edginess in reduction is the worst part
the raw red feeling
of being scraped against a
venomous spiked ceiling
being dragged upside down
feeling discomfort,
exhaustion to the highest degree
this dose has been with me for years
I’m getting rid of it perhaps a little too fast,
deplete it from me,
just damned well leave my system,
let me breathe.
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I did the same a while ago. It can be rough, but it is doable. Best of luck.
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Thank you for the kind words of support, my friend. ❤
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Minor advice — go slow. In my case it still was difficult (6- or 8-week weaning process), but easier than sudden cessation would have been.
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I will heed your advice, thank you. I think I went too fast, so took more tonight and went to bed earlier. Woke earlier as expected, however will be better in the long run.
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You are more than welcome. Feel free to ask me questions if I can help. I’ll zip it up now and spare you my “sage advice”.
Cheers.
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No, no, your words are much appreciated, thank you again, Michael. 🙂 If I have any questions, I will indeed reach out.
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I feel you through this. 🌹♥️
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Thank you, dearest Amber. ❤
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Thank you for sharing this authentic and vulnerable piece! How perfectly written, I especially love the last few lines. Amazing as always, my dear Lauren. Keep shining ✨🖤🤗
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Thank you, dearest Ace! Did you get my comment I left on your blog the other day, the Contact Me page?
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Of course! And yes, I did! Made my week, thank you so very much! I emailed you back 🤗🖤
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Oh I didn’t see the reply, let me look…
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….and she is back with another one of her unique poems . Lauren, really loved this❤️💯💯
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Thanks so much, Karan 🙂 so kind of you ❤️
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Beautiful and raw, dearest Lauren. Straight from the heart, with emotions and feelings that resonate with us all. Sending love and hugs, my dear friend. 🥰❤️
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Thank you for the love, dearest Jeff, I really appreciate your kind words. Many hugs to you. ❤
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You’re most welcome, dearest Lauren. Always. Thank you for the lovely hugs. ❤️
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