Tag: death

  • Poem: The Hot Room – 13/08/21

    Poem: The Hot Room – 13/08/21

    Orchids wilt in the hot room.
    It is summer here, outside, a belligerent winter
    with a dying, poorly Moon.
    They have thrown themselves from their stakes.
    Stakes which were there to provide safety,
    protection,
    backboned projections.

    The orchids, they are careless, for they have
    left their safe havens,
    their ties have been cut,
    severed from the heaven they once
    grew towards,
    now wilted, lethargic.

    What a sorry sight for eyes,
    used to falling upon beauty,
    now dejection and misery,
    once-taut, now lacklustre under the
    oppressive heat’s fury,
    the split system churns out
    Celsius, five and twenty,
    degrees of measure too hot
    for the orchids,
    whom cannot stop wilting.

    Their heads, they can barely lift,
    too much of a trouble it is to subsist,
    rejection of the support
    because I cannot, will not,
    do not want to entertain that foggy breath
    of mist,
    morning time offers some solace
    when the fiery heater does its trick.

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  • Poem: An Early Arrival – Spoken Word and Text – 11/08/20

    Poem: An Early Arrival – Spoken Word and Text – 11/08/20

    Audio: An Early Arrival
    Death says, “You’re early!”
    as I walk onto the stage.
    My guillotine sharpened and ready,
    media smiling while clasping notepads,
    pressed pens upon page.
     
    I was not expected for years,
    this is what Death’s exclamation explains to me,
    but I am a spectacle,
    I am here for the hungry crowd,
    they wish to view the macabre,
    this audience is here and ready to see.
     
    What hastened my arrival?
    I could not tell you for sure,
    even I am shocked into disbelief,
    though of my end, not frightened to the core,
    because I am here to promise a show for them,
    I am here with the promise of a song and dance,
    a strummed tune for them,
    I will present until the final drop of the blade for them,
    then off I will roll, and that’s the last I will reveal to them.
     
    It’s hard to entertain when all I’ve been doing my whole life is just that,
    not out of practice but tired of performing,
    it drains me so to have to always be alert
    and on show,
    but the fact of the matter is,
    I took this role,
    and Death gestures as if to say,
    “If you’re ready, off you go!”
     
    I gingerly test the guillotine, pulling slowly,
    allowing the blade to rise far earlier
    than my life, my neck, would ever have expected
    to have nestled beneath,
    I try the blade, it is sharp, it is harsh, it is mean,
    it is everything that is promised by a weapon from Death
    who now seems so keen.
     
    He is no longer shocked into submission,
    he is encouraging the crowd to rise with their applauding,
    and I wonder why he is so wild with their energy’s encouragement,
    perhaps he wants me to go out with an enthusiastic moment.
     
    But, I decide I don’t want to perform a song and a dance,
    no, I don’t wish to partake in this solo show expected of me,
    in fact, I have decided from this stage I wish to leave,
    and quite frankly, I’m done with being this expected version of me.
     
    Thus, from the stairs I clumsily descend,
    scurry away with a glance over my shoulder,
    apprehension in my eyes,
    this is not to say of Death I am afraid,
    but I wouldn’t go so far as to say I am unafraid, even brave before him either.
     
    My courage simply wilted the moment I stepped off stage,
    out of view from that hungry, cruel crowd,
    I think I’ll stay well away from Death’s clutches,
    I want to remain alive for far longer,
    I don’t need to hear his grating, formidable tone,
    myself, I know I have saved,
    with my will and personal power.   
    
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    Image by Richard Duijnstee from Pixabay

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  • Poem: The Rocket Clock – 04/08/20

    Poem: The Rocket Clock – 04/08/20

    And on the Rocket Clock!
    our focused eyes widened.
    On the Rocket Clock!
    we learned to tell big-people’s time.
     
    Around the Rocket Clock!
    we smiled and shared songs,
    on the Rocket Clock!
    parents watched our years grow richer
    as we travelled through life,
    singing, clapping, playing along.
     
    On wristwatches,
    we interpreted the angles of hands,
    on our wristwatches,
    we practiced patience and countdowns –
    (of patience I wasn’t a fan)
     
    on the classroom clock,
    we learned just five minutes until recess!
    on the examination room clock
    we shuddered as exam's end drew near.
     
    Behind the gymnasium walls,
    nervous, sweaty palms,
    midday was the call,
     
    arms wrapped around,
    falling into an embrace,
    time standing still,
    relationship, a new beginning is forged,
    is tentatively made.
     
    Years pass,
    and behind, in a secret room,
    we watch the time count down,
    dressed in gorgeous lily white,
    the rest in flesh and fuchsia pink,
    classy frills, lace, and thrills,
     
    nervously an iPhone’s time is repeatedly consulted,
    impending matrimony,
    it’s almost time,
    when two lives will become a beautiful, single flow.
     
    On the Rocket Clock,
    look, darling,
    do you see the little and big hands?
    That means it’s half past three,
    Daddy loved to read the Rocket Clock, too.
     
    Did I ever tell you how we met?
    Oh, would you look at the time…
    The rocket clock says its not time
    to share that story with you,
    perhaps for now, I’ll keep it as his and mine.
     
    A stern, sterile hospital,
    that sad, clinical clock,
    the second hand which does not tick,
    is red and goes around continuously
    as though a lie that life will go on and on,
     
    but here, life can cease prematurely,
    or perhaps once we have accepted this, it will,
    to know that for them to be taken by another’s ethereal hand 
    when our loved one is prepared, 
    it will occur when they are ready.
     
    Remember when we watched the Rocket Clock?
    I spin his worn golden ring around.
    Remember when you counted the time down?
    What a joyous sound!
    Remember our years,
    remember our lives,
    then fall shut do his paining eyes,
     
    my truest man,
    his loss, my undoing,
    the world accepts his spirit,
    his is a willing sacrifice he’s bringing.
     
    I grasp his hand fiercely,
    stare at that abominable clock,
    tears squeeze from my eyes,
    I’ll never forget this moment,
    this time,
    
    I rub his palm against my cheek
    and hysterically sob,
    so proud I had called him mine.   
    
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    Photo by Matheus Bertelli from Pexels
    
    Author's note: "The Rocket Clock" references a short time-telling segment in a very popular educational Australian children's television program called "Play School". It's been showing for over fifty years.  

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  • Poem: Exhale – Spoken Word and Text – 10/07/20

    Poem: Exhale – Spoken Word and Text – 10/07/20

    “Exhale” Audio
    Don’t hold your breath.
    Exhale, allow it to be free.
    Allow the endorphins to flow through
    your very being.
    
    Do not hold your breath,
    there is no need;
    wondering, wishing, waiting,
    for something which may not be.
    
    Live, my love, live,
    please know that I have been,
    in this formerly crowded world
    now a stripped ghost town.
    
    Your heart
    and my heart are full,
    we must breathe the freshest
    air that I can drag from this
    phantasmagorical land,
    
    we may be apart and alone
    and I may be without true air,
    but understand,
    please understand
    that I will return,
    I will reign triumphant,
    soaring upon winged creatures’ spans.
    
    I will exhale as I jump from the edge,
    expiring as I see fit,
    because sometimes, in life,
    we must accept that leaving
    this world is required,
    I will return again,
    
    and again,
    I will be myself
    in another form,
    perhaps you’ll find me,
    and when you do,
    exhale loudly and clasp my hand
    then I’ll know
    we have returned.
    
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    Image by Mystic Art Design from Pixabay

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  • Poem: Jacob’s Wings – 06/07/20

    Poem: Jacob’s Wings – 06/07/20

    Your wings were ready
    but we were not,
    we should have felt
    prepared for this day,
     
    for months we
    insisted that you
    remain with us,
    were we so selfish
    each time we decided
    you should stay?
     
    Those fateful, family discussions
    which ended with:
    Save Jacob!
    With us, he must remain.
     
    Your sad eyes quietly suffered,
    your bloated, lethargic body
    laid sprawled on the porch,
     
    each morning and evening
    your advanced Cushing’s disease
    required invasive, pain-controlling shots.
     
    We couldn’t let you go,
    but you begged,
    silently cried
    for freedom,
     
    to slip away
    from this world,
    far from your suffering,
     
    we insisted a little longer in
    our lives you must remain,
    we loved you,
    saying goodbye so soon?
    There was no way.
     
    Your elderly state,
    your debilitating illness,
    your immense pain,
    the accompanying afflictions,
    as a family pet you’d been
    so good to us,
    and now we
    would not let you leave.
     
    But for all your suffering,
    there came the time
    when we
    realised and acknowledged
    that with future wings
    you must be
    allowed to roam free,
     
    your wings were
    almost ready,
    but our hearts
    still ached for you
    not to leave.
     
    And as I stared
    into your beautiful, deep brown,
    understanding eyes,
    I held your paw
    as the green calming fluid
    took hold of you,
     
    my darling, 
    my sweet, brave Jacob,
    my loving companion before me,
    
    who comforted me through
    hell and heaven,
    finally at peace,
     
    our tears continued to well,
    hysterical, guttural wails,
    our world now bare,
    lost without you,
     
    my two younger brothers and I left alone
    in this stark grey, private room:
    utterly broken, crestfallen, despairing.
    
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