Poem: Quelled – 22/08/20

Night time should promise depth, and warmth, and promises, whispers of sweet tomorrows, and tight caresses, dreams, and deep rest, instead: three hour’s sleep, then wide awake in the same evening, sleeping for half hour shifts, then rising, eyes searching for the time, wishing it were later, silently begging.   This sleep pattern is skewed, [...]

Poem: The Punishment – 06/07/20

Author's note: This poem details a point in my mental health journey where I was hospitalised for extreme mania, grand delusions and psychosis. These could not be controlled with time and much medication, hence I was subjected to the often-controversial practice of electro-convulsive therapy. The poet whom I speak of in my poem is extremely [...]

Poem: Paper-Thin – 02/07/20

Some may view me as mechanically sound, for I smile quite naturally and talk with a lilting, confident tone. My words are humorous, relaxed, and 'well', they don’t know what’s hiding inside, the astringent sadness, she overwhelms.   Internally, I feel stretched, as though a punishing thin layer has been made out of me, a [...]

Poem: A Bipolar’s Addled Mind – Spoken Word and Text – 26/06/20

https://soundcloud.com/user-894707136/a-bipolars-addled-mind-spoken-word-poetry I shriek, my body flushed and covered with welts, my very first memory, my very first malady.   Illness will follow me wherever I go. My violin's bow hairs tightly hug the strings, as left-hand dexterity is a-flurry, the fruits born of my first psychosis, the magic of a mind wholly scattered and broken, [...]

Poem: The Farce – 20/06/20

There are days when I feel incredibly down, I can’t turn the corners and curves of my mind back up and around,   my stage presence is moot, I’d like to crawl back in the pages of my life’s former books, and relive the wonderful stages.   But I cannot control myself, my miserable entity [...]