the standard rhythmic drum won’t work anymore, it’s not fitting to pound to the spuldr of another’s heart, no when you alone know where to recommence – life truly is art.
with a dear friend around the lake I take a turn and admire ducks, smile at happy mothers children, and puppies with men. I am animated, she listens with quiet calm, by her side, I need no longer need take her arm, for days of physical support are not near, there’s nothing to help me, nor there to fear, while anxiety can burden, it’s not featuring here.
The colours, they always brought me hope,Aura-binding, hue-enhancing,Pink, yellow, blue, green, indigo,But where is the pink, the love I know?I went through life from goals to achievements,Strengths to knowledge,Triumph and growth,But I fell apart,Underlying predisposition,Some of us break at the seams,Myself: undiagnosed manic depressive.Etching large shadowy figures on myBedroom walls,Self-harm,Tears they would fall,Such joy, elation [...]
And I suppose, I suppose it is so, this falling-apart thing that happens to my mind when I go temporary awry, momentarily insane, is this the pushing button inside, or on my brain that makes me ill for two closed months when I’m made to be locked away, my words spoken loudly in vain?
Kookaburras sing their laughter, two fighting for acknowledgement, one with the other, and galahs smile with their cheeky beaded eyes winking, oh my! and the lorikeets feast on our figs, damn it! Mum wants to know WHY. Why is it they are so greedy, sitting on the boughs so precious, looking for something delicious for a bird so pretty, one two flew the coup, out the nest, and well, life is just beginning.
Can Redeemable I be, thy irreverent clause?A chink in the armour, karmic retribution calls?Truth tells, forever yours?I’ll be loyal, less judgemental and kind,But boy how I will need to bite my tongue at perceived thieves who wish to reach and ride alongside. I will smile and be lovely, teach the students about my condition daily,But [...]
It feels so natural to speak the truth Embedded with Constance to see me through Upon the tips of my tongue A hullabaloo And an irrevocable meaning, melding Of heartfelt growling too. They’re, we’re indestructible, I know, View the airiness within me as my two delicates rose I need not have not Want for material [...]
Work on myself I’ll show you how I work When I clean sweep wash the karma from me until its distilled and green I’ll talk it walks! Watch me as I work to cement myself as mint grey And the colours of the rainbow Visitation? Come what may. I’ll show you how I work, When [...]
astounding though the matter be,at least I can still think, breathe, sigh and seenot many people can say thisand not many can attendto this tiresome irksome being stuck insidemy headshe is me a part of methe opportunistic thoughts of mewhen I’m scrambling for power then I need toconvalescebecome redundant therethat side of the world, I [...]
amazing grace, learning to not take centre stage, but to share attention and time with others,growing less selfish and learning to enjoy a new familylearn and love amalgamate share energies --enough!I retreat, the Hermit, the rowboat goes on and on down a canal led by my hero of the tale, but the truth of the [...]