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  • Poem: A Beautiful Scene – 15/01/20

    Poem: A Beautiful Scene – 15/01/20

    I force myself through the grandly carved, imposing doors,
    permitting myself internally, proudly, I am inside.
    Had I been willingly welcomed in, I'd have not
    insisted on this erroneous entrance.
    
    In awe, I look around and above,
    the high ceilings are dotted with colourful scene upon scene
    of love, adoration, and protective eyes,
    creating a sense of warm welcome and
    bright enumerated pride.
      
    Faces belonging to chubby infants and an elegant, finely boned woman feature,
    her knowing expressions painted, captured for all of time.
    With posh, high cheekbones and cheerfully blushed cherubim
    who she’ll sing to, dote on, and playfully pinch,
    they observe me as I explore your inner chasm,
    your being,
    your eyes, they barely blink.
     
    It is amazing, this open space surrounding me, 
    within you, there is no clutter like within myself,
    no gathered items taken and stored
    from an age prior that their usefulness is now deemed defunct.
     
    There are no earthly possessions to release,
    all that speaks is masterful artwork depicting
    how you protected me from afar,
    with your blessings and a heart filled with prayer,
    gratefully I thank you, kissing my fingers,
    and press them against the wall.
     
    There is no pigment here, only earth, barren to view,
    but it is cold and it is calming,
    I am hushed, lulled into silence by
    the complexity and simplicity of you.
     
    With grace and devotion, I begin to quietly retreat
    from my initial impudent entry into your world,
    into the messiness of my interior,
    I glance around, and wistfully exhale,
    this, I do not wish to forget.
     
    And with a final gaze above,
    I beg myself to retain the images,
    with a sense of pious godliness, I cower respectfully,
    say a few quiet words,
    and leave.   
     
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  • Poem: Darling, Am I Too Much? – 14/01/20

    Poem: Darling, Am I Too Much? – 14/01/20

    My darling,
    is it too much that I speak?
    Are my vowels out of turn, yowling into paining ear drums?
    My articulated consonants taut at the edge of profanity,
    is it too much, too much,
    too much so, that I speak?
     
    Best I jot thoughts down then, with an infernal rage,
    cast them aside,
    or scribbled or scrawled out of existence,
    or ripped to shreds, like a tiger
    I know how to decimate,
    it has been bred within me,
    I know my claws will take.
     
    My filter barely sits at the base of my spine,
    where, like at the hands of a maniacal chiropractor,
    I’ve been manipulated after much time,
    and the emotions, they shoot up with
    an impermanence that I cannot bear to control,
    the scars left behind by the bubbling brew of sharply bit dialogue
    promises and lies
    enrage me more,
    stitch me up further,
    I vow to you:
    I will no longer suffer.
     
    I will talk out of turn,
    I will continue to voice truthful opinions,
    my internal wefts, no matter how light or sooty they present,
    I will curl my fingernails into my palm just to feel the pain,
    to remember who I am,
    to wake up,
    to be on par with who I’m trying to be,
    who I am.
     
    My darling,
    I am so sorry that I spoke out of turn,
    permit me to begrudge myself of any relevance,
    I wasn’t entirely aware that such a timely shift had occurred.
     
    Perhaps you will hear me as a voice,
    when you lay your head down to rest,
    wishing to dream of a land of perfection and love and
    forward momentum,
    when I know convoluted nightmares are the trappings
    behind eyes that failed to prize the signs of my moving forward
    and making my life more adapted to my dreams.
     
    I’m not sorry at all,
    because I was cut off at the seams.  
      
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    All images signed “LMH”
    are copyrighted 2019-2020 by Lauren M. Hancock
    and all rights reserved.
    
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  • Poem: Privy – 14/01/20

    Poem: Privy – 14/01/20

    Are you privy to the facts which surround? Those which carefully guard the keyhole,
    preventing curious spiders with their sticky traps of webbing to dance over the edges,
    these facts smile at you, begging you forth, beckoning
    with a laced fingertip, a hardened nail with something underneath, between the skin.
     
    Who says you are permitted into the locket without a key?
    Allow us to joust until the victor takes all the spoils,
    every secret, every hope, every downfall, every dream,
    unwound as though on a raised pianola roll,
    a tune gaily played; a song that makes you feel free.
     
    Don’t forget that song is predetermined,
    no room for human error,
    each note is there without phrasing, without emotion, without thought,
    dictated by an invisible maker to our eyes,
    at the repetition, I insert the key into the hole.
     
    With amazement you look around, 
    inside there is not much room,
    some spaces only fit for a mouse, others for a boa constrictor, but I wouldn’t
    own something so loud and obnoxious.
    Carefully you sift through the remnants of the past,
    like sand, the grains get lost between your toes and soles,
    but you do not mind,
    you are engrossed with the locket that houses many intricacies,
    and sneakily I close the door, and lock you inside my heart,
    you are all mine; all secrets safe with me.
    
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    All images signed “LMH”
    are copyrighted 2019-2020 by Lauren M. Hancock
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  • Poem: Stupid Youth – 13/01/20

    Poem: Stupid Youth – 13/01/20

     I remember being on that highway
     where I urged you on from my car
     to keep up with me
     the exhilaration breathless wind rushing 
     gasp inducing risk taking
     no one else here to see.
      
     100 110 115 pushing 120 could we go any faster honey 
     130 that’s it! 
     140 we’ve hit it,
     our cumulative grins bounce with chuffed merriment 
     from within our chassis 
     I know you love it, this feeling of being stupidly free
     there’s no one else here, you see,
     nothing wrong with this.
      
     A whirr whirr whirr resounds
     damnit, I cry, slowing as slowly as can be from 
     such a high speed
     widened eyes,
     Police officer, how can we help?
     Stupid selfish little girls 
     He hopes the lesson sticks and the expensive tickets help. 
    
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     are copyrighted 2019-2020 by Lauren M. Hancock 
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  • Poem: “I am enough” – 12/01/20

    Poem: “I am enough” – 12/01/20

     I am enough the way I am, she scrawls over and over
     on the draft paper for algebra which 
     she really has no use for, 
     her math is terrible, best use 
     the sheets as they are to scratch and scrawl.
     Enough, enough, enough,
     she traces the letters, feeds the words,
     perhaps one day another person she’ll enthrall.
      
     An understanding that if she writes the phrase 
     often enough it’ll ring true,
     a sudden belief structure then reverently erected 
     like a mosque or a church
     present to preserve self-acceptance 
     and worship of her own worth
     for she does not accept these words, 
     round and round her calligraphy swirls.
      
     Empty loops and hollow introspection exist,
     to her, she is nothing right now, she is yet to become.
     The ink drags along with her flowing hand,
     reflections of prior motions, 
     self-directions.
      
     But enough, enough! with this self-pity and deep sadness,
     at a lack of acknowledgement for 
     her true internal development,
     she is enough, 
     always has been,
     always will,
     so saddening she needed to ink the phrase upon her skin. 
      
     Because now the mark speaks of how 
     she believed she was not enough,
     so much so that, insecurity rose and drowned her,
     to pay someone to mark her for life,
     with words in a calligraphy that was not mine. 
      
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     All images signed “LMH” 
     are copyrighted 2019-2020 by Lauren M. Hancock 
     and all rights reserved. 
    
     Photo by Bich Tran from Pexels         

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  • Poem: “I am enough” – 12/01/20

    Poem: “I am enough” – 12/01/20

     I am enough the way I am, she scrawls over and over
     on the draft paper for algebra which 
     she really has no use for, 
     her math is terrible, best use 
     the sheets as they are to scratch and scrawl.
     Enough, enough, enough,
     she traces the letters, feeds the words,
     perhaps one day another person she’ll enthrall.
      
     An understanding that if she writes the phrase 
     often enough it’ll ring true,
     a sudden belief structure then reverently erected 
     like a mosque or a church
     present to preserve self-acceptance 
     and worship of her own worth
     for she does not accept these words, 
     round and round her calligraphy swirls.
      
     Empty loops and hollow introspection exist,
     to her, she is nothing right now, she is yet to become.
     The ink drags along with her flowing hand,
     reflections of prior motions, 
     self-directions.
      
     But enough, enough! with this self-pity and deep sadness,
     at a lack of acknowledgement for 
     her true internal development,
     she is enough, 
     always has been,
     always will,
     so saddening she needed to ink the phrase upon her skin. 
      
     Because now the mark speaks of how 
     she believed she was not enough,
     so much so that, insecurity rose and drowned her,
     to pay someone to mark her for life,
     with words in a calligraphy that was not mine. 
      
     © 2020 Lauren M. Hancock. All rights reserved.
     All images signed “LMH” 
     are copyrighted 2019-2020 by Lauren M. Hancock 
     and all rights reserved. 
    
     Photo by Bich Tran from Pexels         

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  • Poem: The Wispy Nature of Oversleep – 09/01/20

    Poem: The Wispy Nature of Oversleep – 09/01/20

     Sleep pervades my being,
     invades every cell within me,
     I am awash with the heaviness of lulling eyelids but 
     I am not dreaming, 
     I feel utterly dreary. 
      
     A seascape of consciousness which dampens,
     I see through eyes with cloudy vision, a certain hazing,
     then the fog begins to lift, 
     it was only a matter of time, 
     before I became clear,
     I’ll make this morning mine. 
      
     Though, 
     the remnants of last night’s wispy cotton wool 
     which protected me from haunting nightmares and 
     pointed corners and sharp turns
     it follows me, it drags behind, wraps around, 
     I cannot help but smile. 
      
     She is like my little shadow, a white fluffy helper,
     to bear the brunt of whatever is thrown behind 
     my back or front,
     whether knives or slashing words of vengeance, 
     I am not alone,
     I have her.
      
     She catches me when I fall, 
     purposefully reaching for something to 
     entangle herself with, 
     and I am reminded that sleep isn’t so bad, 
     I should be grateful to have had any at all.
      
     When sleep will linger another morning, I will 
     count myself thankful —
     I have a secondary presence, 
     to be encased by softness and protection of careful eyes
     is precious
     like a provided wedding dress, I here clutch the 
     trailing white garment close,
     I hold her near and dear.
      
     And now it is time for the moment of matrimony,
     I didn’t sign up for this,
     though, by goodness I’ll give it a shot,
     I take my step into the unknown,
     an awakening has occurred,
     a union has come to pass:
     all I’ve done is marry an open morning and 
     allowed myself to wake up. 
       
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     All images signed “LMH” 
     are copyrighted 2019-2020 by Lauren M. Hancock 
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  • Poem: Bebsis – 09/01/20

    Poem: Bebsis – 09/01/20

     my bebsis —
     what can I say about her?
      
     nothing more than the enormity of 
     everything which I would readily articulate,
     with such gratitude I would spout clouds of 
     perfumed sentiment that would bury us both 
     and playfully we would cast aside the damp 
     to find the merriment,
     the celebration behind our conjoining, 
     as sisters we are one,
     as sisters, we are the same.  
      
     our state of being,
     adoptive as we made ourselves from 
     a faraway source,
     we have been through so much,
     on our own and together,
     
     we are here and there for each other.
      
     a differing reflection but an interior which
     mirrors mine 
     even when I flash a different shade, 
     she carries me in careful moments,
     she smooths away the yearning and 
     indecisiveness of my day.
      
     we are more than adequate when separate but 
     whole when woven, and weaving our words,
     we can exist on our own, 
     though I’d rather be knitted together,
     a little amigurumi penguin and a pensive raven 
     in this make-believe land of ours. 
      
     she is the rationale, 
     I am the fiery child, 
     she is my guarder, at times,
     oft does she carry the light,
     she attends and brightens my shadow.
      
     walking similar paths before even having met,
     our trails melded with the firm blows we felt from 
     hearing similar tales.
     each punch was a sign in our eyes, our mouths,
     a truthful force felt, with immediacy I knew:
     this girl was meant to be in my life.
      
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  • Poem: At Least I’m Happy – 07/01/20

    Poem: At Least I’m Happy – 07/01/20

     At least I’m happy, she sings, 
     as she pokes out her tongue, 
     blows a raspberry in his face.
      
     Ewww, girl germs!
     His body flexes back as if he’s a reincarnation of a 
     yogi or Gumby,
     flexible to an amazing degree
     simply because of a little bit of spittle,
     it is but a harmless raspberry.
      
     You never wanted me 
     The accusation
     
     But now, you will see:
     I stand proud and true
     I don’t curl with agony
     I didn’t shatter with your hurtful unfeeling
      
     The boy lunges toward the woman,
     lording over and talking down 
     I gave you all you were worth
      
     and in unison:
     I guess you weren’t worthy enough. 
      
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  • Poem: At Least I’m Happy – 07/01/20

    Poem: At Least I’m Happy – 07/01/20

     At least I’m happy, she sings, 
     as she pokes out her tongue, 
     blows a raspberry in his face.
      
     Ewww, girl germs!
     His body flexes back as if he’s a reincarnation of a 
     yogi or Gumby,
     flexible to an amazing degree
     simply because of a little bit of spittle,
     it is but a harmless raspberry.
      
     You never wanted me 
     The accusation
     
     But now, you will see:
     I stand proud and true
     I don’t curl with agony
     I didn’t shatter with your hurtful unfeeling
      
     The boy lunges toward the woman,
     lording over and talking down 
     I gave you all you were worth
      
     and in unison:
     I guess you weren’t worthy enough. 
      
     © 2020 Lauren M. Hancock. All rights reserved.
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     are copyrighted 2019-2020 by Lauren M. Hancock 
     and all rights reserved.  
    
     Photo by Siavash Ghanbari on Unsplash 

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