
I lay myself away
to sleep,
rug myself up,
curled,
not a single peep,
and rock, rock as though
I’m in need of solace myself
for it’s not often
in my world I feel
the need to cry out
for help.
Yet tonight seems empty,
lonesome though I am,
I cannot drag myself
to the phone,
or to the other room,
to open arms,
welcoming heart and hands,
no, quiet I am,
here now without need to
rest, for sleep,
pining is my pulse’s melody
for something, or someone
less bitter, but sweet.
How circumstance has
allowed me to feel lost
without shared voices,
the constant need
for chatter,
for smiles,
boisterous callings,
giggles, confident loose laughter,
bouts of sarcasm and bite,
but only in good humour,
voices peal into the night.
And when the connection
is broken,
the silence, emptiness
creeps into place,
I’m not used to talking
with a best friend
without their face in my
visual space,
but the quietness now
it unnerves me,
I’m unused to my
own company,
suck it up, I tell myself,
no need for gloom and misery.
Solitude is not the best
right now for me,
I grab my knees close,
rock furiously,
mindlessly,
keeping myself occupied,
softly, knowingly,
burdened by the deafening silence,
all with saddening ease,
loneliness flows from me.
© 2021 Lauren M. Hancock. All rights reserved.
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Wow. Excellent piece , Lauren. I loved how you painted an active picture of loneliness in my mind. Brilliantly done, my friend.💕💕
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Thank you so much, my friend, Grace. I’m really happy I could paint that picture in your mind. Have a wonderful day and night! ❤ ❤
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My pleasure 💕
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This is amazing, Lauren! Loneliness is so painful. You alright? DM me when you want to talk, okay? Love you, hugs 🥺💜💜
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Thanks so much, Shrubz! I’m okay now, just felt rather lonely last night. I will speak with you later on tonight. xx Love ya too.
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Okay, I understand. Happens on some nights. Take care 💜
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Thank you 💕 ❤️
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beautifully vulnerable.
I can relate ❤️
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❤ ❤ Thank you, I'm glad you can relate. Sometimes loneliness can be all-consuming but we carry on. 🙂
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You’re welcome 🙂
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Mmmm. You’ve captured loneliness so well here, Lauren. Powerful, my dear friend. ❤️❤️
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Thanks so much, Jeff ❤️ Hope you’ve had a nice Saturday 🙂
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You’re most welcome, Lauren, always. ❤️ I did, indeed, and hope you did too! ❤️
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